Can we love God and bury Jesus down inside of us? How, when He has risen, and reigns, and labors in ministry?
Shall we hide the One we love, who also has rescued us? “Better is open rebuke than hidden love.” (Proverbs 27:5 ESV)
And can this God who made us His own – to worship Him – be content hidden inside of His children? No, for He is a consuming fire. Therefore may He bring a fire in our bones that cannot be shut up! (Jeremiah 20:9)
That is a fire in us, do not quench the Spirit! “[For] no one, after lighting a lamp, covers it with a basket or puts it under a bed, but puts it on a lampstand so that those who come in may see the light.” (Luke 8:16 CSB)
Let us consider His call a command to mobilize our whole body. Paul said, “brothers, by the mercies of God, I urge you to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God; this is your spiritual worship.” (Romans 12:1 CSB)
Most of my Christian life (born again 2005) has been barren of the fruits of love and ministry that really make a difference for the Kingdom. I’ve stayed in prayer, continued in the study of the Word, but showed only occasional and grudging efforts to serve. My highest hopes were mostly confined to writing poetry, though I also had a dream to start a Christian publishing house.
This past winter (2021) I finished a 4 and a half year effort to assemble a commentary on Psalms. Whereas I had planned to return to work, get a car, and save up money to start a Christian publishing company, God said no to all these plans.
Instead, I started to study Hebrew methodically, attend church regularly, and the LORD began to move. He brought me the Spirit. He brought me a sense of life, beauty, and cheer. He gave me an attitude of gratitude.
One day in April, God called me out of sexual indulgence. When I said yes to Him, He filled me with a clean and powerful Spirit. That day, He conquered my pronounced habit of looking at women to lust after them. I am so excited to live as a trustworthy brother to all my sisters.
This Presence I had never known to last more than a brief time of prayer, but now it stayed on me for about a month. Since I am nothing, I cling to Him who lives in me, and He sustains me and will.
I praise God because He was not content with these mighty works, but saving me from lust, He also saved me from gluttony and sloth (by transforming my appetite and energy levels). Thank you, God!
20 years ago, a sudden, extreme revelation of the wickedness of the world reversed my trusting disposition with the force of an axe hitting my mind. This dark vision, which I call Negativa, punished me with a blindness toward all the deeply good people around us. It also brought me to demonize many, denying their humanity.
The Holy Spirit has now reversed this curse, and I see myself surrounded by people God is working in with joy and power. I humble myself before this great moving sea of His servants, including the angels above, who all participate together to advance the Kingdom of the Son of His Love. The labor of the harvest is something we join in on together, even though it is the 11th hour.
The Spirit has finally helped me to see that God has an answer to the evil of the world, in saving many and in reigning over us all in Truth. This change in my heart is the plundering and spoiling of the Negativa, so that to a little understanding of the darkness, He has added that healthy recognition most of us have of the humanity and goodness in so many.
So when God called me to street witness I followed Him. He has sent me out with tracts and copies of the Gospel of John, to Deep Ellum, (a large bar district in Dallas), and to our downtown, especially the homeless. I’ve also been partnering up with a homeless ministry, Our Calling, and engaging in outreach with some brothers from church.
Revival is already happening, a rushing wind in Africa, a fire in China, and more recently in India, the Muslim world, and even among His own Jewish People. He is doing this work in a revelation of power and mercy, in visions, miracles, and faith.
I believe God will bring revival here in Dallas, and throughout this poor country, and it is already under way. All revival must be bathed in prayer, and it is by bearing a Cross in prayer, to the point of shedding tears, that God hastens, attending to this country, and all countries. May the Lord Jesus be glorified and magnified, by bringing us to repentance, and revealing Himself to our stony hearts, so that we worship Him in awe and love.